My Agreement, His Decision
He always done will in his career. When he joined the world well know shaving industries, he is the one and only Malaysian that chosen to based in Boston (East United Stated Of America) taking care of South American market, his been there for 18 months, and he dispatch me from Malaysia to Boston for 3 months holiday, he brought me to Florida Disney Land, Chicago, New York, Rock Island, Salem etc...etc.... and finally he came back 4 years ago, then left the shaving industries and currently attached with Multinational Stationary Industries, he enjoined what he is doing now, with a concrete structure and a good and understanding direct report.
And the same opportunity came to him again, this opportunity it's in his hand, he can just grab it, and he will be 3 level up from his current position, condition is ... permanently based in Hong Kong, travel extensively to Asia Pacific country like, US and New Zealand as a Regional Marketing Manager.
I can be shellfish and say "NO", and he will stay and continue doing his current job, Chinese always have a say "男人一定要以事业为重", can I really do that? I do not know. We both are so quiet yesterday, cause his waiting for my reply and I am waiting for his too, he know very well that if he go, he will be working in a glamour environment without me, if he stay on, he will still have a job plus me by his side, now we have to decide on Career and Personal. Deep down inside, I know very well that, he really wanted to go, just that, he can't leave us behind, am I a burden to him? if without me, he can just pack and go. This morning, I told him, "what ever decision he made, I will fully support, and I can manage it", do I really mean it? when this sentence came out from my mouth, i feel a hard smash pain in my heart, was trying very hard to control my tears in front of him, right after I left him at KLCC Conventional Hall for PIKOM exhibition, immediately, I break down and cry while driving home, dare not call him, so scare that he will call me, cause I can't talk, really...this kind of feeling is worst then 5 years ago when he decided to go Boston, at least there's a time frame for 18 months stay, but this time, not time frame, no limit, no guarantee, do not know what will happen. ...... what can I do now? to be shellfish devil, so that he will stay, or be an angel, and suffer at the end. By the way, dateline is tomorrow "Monday".
And the same opportunity came to him again, this opportunity it's in his hand, he can just grab it, and he will be 3 level up from his current position, condition is ... permanently based in Hong Kong, travel extensively to Asia Pacific country like, US and New Zealand as a Regional Marketing Manager.
I can be shellfish and say "NO", and he will stay and continue doing his current job, Chinese always have a say "男人一定要以事业为重", can I really do that? I do not know. We both are so quiet yesterday, cause his waiting for my reply and I am waiting for his too, he know very well that if he go, he will be working in a glamour environment without me, if he stay on, he will still have a job plus me by his side, now we have to decide on Career and Personal. Deep down inside, I know very well that, he really wanted to go, just that, he can't leave us behind, am I a burden to him? if without me, he can just pack and go. This morning, I told him, "what ever decision he made, I will fully support, and I can manage it", do I really mean it? when this sentence came out from my mouth, i feel a hard smash pain in my heart, was trying very hard to control my tears in front of him, right after I left him at KLCC Conventional Hall for PIKOM exhibition, immediately, I break down and cry while driving home, dare not call him, so scare that he will call me, cause I can't talk, really...this kind of feeling is worst then 5 years ago when he decided to go Boston, at least there's a time frame for 18 months stay, but this time, not time frame, no limit, no guarantee, do not know what will happen. ...... what can I do now? to be shellfish devil, so that he will stay, or be an angel, and suffer at the end. By the way, dateline is tomorrow "Monday".
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posted by nicknooo @ Sunday, August 05, 2007
Chooi, I dunno what to say about it. Whatever you and his decision, i will fully support.